Questioning my faith

Earlier this year, I was devasted and rocked when I found myself reading Genesis (the bible) and writing in another book, questions upon questions. Many of these included homosexuality, dinosaurs and what “the expanse of heavens” actually mean.

I found myself questioning my faith and watching Atheist youtubers didn’t help either. It didn’t matter if they targeted catholics, mormons, or people with different ideals than mine. I became cynical and rational.

“God couldn’t be real. Surely not. It’s impossible.”

Plus, he didn’t answer any of my dinosaur-related questions.

I knew christians weren’t stupid people. So this stands to reason that we can ask questions. This is only to get a clearer understanding and picture of what we say we believe. If we don’t understand, we can’t explain this to others.

Still, I found that the more questions I asked, the more answers I didn’t have, the more cynical I became.

But then something happened that changed how I felt about what I was doing. I had just come back from Hong Kong and I met my christian friends at an event (more on this in a later post). As I had fellowship with these peeople and worshiped God with people who were secured in their faith, and had an aura of confidence in God, I realised something. I wasn’t asking questions to prove that God wasn’t real. I wasn’t doing it to rennounce my faith and step away from it.

I’m not asking questions to rennounce my faith and step away from it. But I’m asking questions in order to re-build the foundation blocks stronger and steadier and according to what I actually believe.

This is what this short blog post is about. Although it’s short, it was a happy revelation so I hope sharing this might also brighten someone’s day too.

I have to keep looking for answers and keep asking questions because I don’t have a full revelation or a complete big picture yet, but as I search, I’m confident I’ll find what I’m looking for.

Questions to think about:

  1. What do you believe?
  2. Why do you believe this?
  3. Does what you believe actually make sense and feel right to you?